Why do we….

A topic i read about, well more a post about was self-harm–aka cutting, etc—this can take many forms and honestly many many reasons–i read a post where someone said something i like that is NOT the reason to self harm, that person (possibly a non-self harmer) doesnt get it—and all i wanted to say, really—first how do you know they arent self-harming—like the person that wrote it, they deny it—second it might be their reason, and their reason alone–doesnt mean it is wrong and they dont get it–guess this hit me because “we” are self-harmers–it isnt something we talk about but we are mentioning it here–mainly for the reason because we are sure many would look at us as weird for the reason–we even got criticized by others for our reason–but it is our reason–sure the reason may not be “truth” per se–but to us it is.

our reason mainly is religious, spiritual–we were told not too long ago (this we write another blog on spiritual abuse)–how evil, demonic we were–that all our MH issues, SI (self injury issues), depression, eating issues, ect are all demons and if we prayed enough, had faith enough, submitted enough, went through exorcism and or healing deliverance then all the MH stuff would stop—really????? the demon stuff we write more about in the other blog but yeah after hearing this from ministers we believed it—and since all their praying was not working, and we were so unfaithful, we wanted to be “clean”–“clean” of these demons that took over us–we wanted to LIVE healthy and not have these MH issues–yeah we believe(d) all that and at times still do–but the kicker for us were the words “Covered in the blood”–“Covered” in his blood—-hmmmmm….so we cover ourselves in blood life communion all in hopes to eventually drive the demons and MH issues away

Now plz do NOT write anything bashing here–plz dont laugh or criticize–it takes a lot to write that–but unfortunately it is our reason and started forming innocently from those powerful words from a minister,

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